Samuel Elbaz Lost Blog

2012-02-03T02:06:00.001-05:00

I Started out in the dirt trying to clean myself, looking up, everyday trying to escape, this dirty place, looking for a solution to have a conclusion. I Just wanted a friend to be there, instead I had music as a substitution, that's why I am here now in the first place, trying to make an escape It took my last breath, took my last heart beat, took my pulse and everything I had left. 10 years later Nothing new, nothing gained everything remained the same.

Song for Sienna By Brian Crain

2011-12-08T15:39:00.000-05:00

The Whisper

2011-11-22T00:23:00.002-05:00

I'm vulnerable locked in this room, scared to runaway the respect for myself is depreciated, like the dollar gets each day. it's getting harder to breathe with the knife at my throat, whispering into the pillow for some hope, it's soaked. laying in my mind, trying to awake from all these distractions, a drug is my mirage helping to fight on.

A whisper in my ear,

I need to move on

just go away

the whisper

shouting back at me

the whisper guides me

I can't escape the whisper is my own mistake.

The black and blues healed, but the child will never be the same, trying to crawl, but getting forced to run its hurting so much I am not even a person anymore it's too much. Trying to be what I am not anymore, I've given up and let the spark ignite to the death of me.

A whisper in my ear,

I need to move on

just go away

the whisper

shouting back at me

the whisper guides me

I can't escape the whisper is my own mistake.

2011-11-16T18:07:00.000-05:00

Walking above the ground,

hiding in the distance,

lurking while I wilt behind

Looking like a stone left to crumble and die

I have blown away.

pieces all over the world

from the mistakes we all make

Meta morph into something never done before.

I keep blurring out and can't remember a thing, but one thing sticks within, the scar left inside.

Everything keeps growing inside of me

2011-09-16T22:27:00.002-04:00

Everything keeps growing inside of me, weak, a possession, like a diamond sparkling in the rough, but upon it blood from the last remnants of a touch. As we seek , we destroy it; held until submission dead or alive will take you at our own will, no consideration of anyone as long as you're filled up no matter what.

A personal strew, disposed all over the floor of dreams I use to view passionately, I want more than life more than anything I can ever dream as simple as being with my own self. Just myself, myself. I wrote a fairy tale in ink, the funny thing is that ink bleeds through, what should I do when I lost to my own solution am I stupid or pitiful.

Forever this way will I always remain the same, Is this my destiny, can I break the cycle of a repetitive pie quotation that changes slightly yet always remains the same. Do you believe all the work I put into this just to forget my own abuse.

Shaking in my shoes trying to get loose, wishing for everything instead of trying to fight for a rescue route. I try not to forget the day my heart broke and faded away, but now I'm better off, so much better. I looked over a bridge and watched the waterfall burst so did the rainbow behind the glass; at the end of the day I am alone. I have nothing else to say, yet I keep ticking., I keep ticking. I am running from myself I wish to accept you, nothing new I just want you to know that I am here for you, and at heartbreak I accept you, I accept you, I accept you.

LPU Summit Hamburg 2011 Rolling in the Deep Linkin Park Adele cover

2011-06-21T23:48:00.000-04:00

Candy

2011-05-27T13:36:00.000-04:00

With love and all I want it all so I ride my bicycle to the store; grab a cart to fill with candy hearts for me to eat, oh so sweet one lick, two lick ow, oh no I think I got a cavity. I need a drink, water please. Swindling down what a chill the ice melts in my mouth and hurts my teeth I must have gotten a cavity. Why did I eat so many candy treats? I try and try to resist, but each bite is so yummy with a swirl of colors so sweet I ride the rainbow with each lick a beautiful design a Lollipop swirl I want it all, but I have to learn to much at once is never good, so I will wait for tomorrow to come.

2011-05-06T07:53:00.001-04:00

My chips are continuously up on being down one day at a time I have fought the battle far and proud, with loss of emotion, loss admission an admiration of an attempt of my submission. Rise up, rise high take a roll of the dice and tell the god of luck it's my time to shine.

Freedom soars in dialect a preach of speech secures a seat; battle of strength will be lost in defeat though the words will concur with victory. I am something that is what we call indecency, spellbound on this hell bound plane down we all fall down.

Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - Home [2009]

2011-04-22T19:34:00.000-04:00

2011-04-22T17:53:00.001-04:00

I feel like I am dead I can’t lie, I feel I just walk around with no purpose to be found, I am alone, what are real friends? Have I had them and I just blew them off? I can’t recall getting invited out by people genuinely because they wanted me there, I know it has happen on occasion nothing immensely though, when it did happen I remember fighting social anxiety and some degree of agoraphobia, but not really something you explain mainly make up excuses which usually is basically I don’t feel well with final words from me “I am sick sorry”, but I was scared (not an excuse to be scared I know) crazy because I don’t feel that exact same way anymore, underneath at times it comes out and I know it still exists. I think I been pushed to the side so many times for others to hang out with people they didn’t want me to be around, maybe embarrassed of me or some threat I just don’t fit in an outcast weird who the fuck knows. I know now that I am just alone, I think I need to accept that more than anything just how to make use of that alone time, Any good memory or sense of accomplishment never really happened with me alone it was something shared, I love to share underneath it all and embrace others and really go out and have a fun time just be myself with others it brings out things you didn’t know of whom you are I don’t remember who I am.

Left

2011-04-22T08:52:00.002-04:00

Crazed with innocence broken down with insunificant's washed away with karma. Hide me, Hide me I have no room. Dark and distance tied and twisted, wanted to do, everything I could. You just knew, just knew I would fall for you; it’s true.

Fighting reaching craving; I knew the future I created the past. A child, a peddler the stolen run, my stolen conscious, my stolen.

Vanquished yearn what you may, just know I can’t feel, I am not human, I am not here. Pretending I am presiding, nothing known forever, tell me your secrets your problems just don’t expect to get invited. A helper when all else failed, I failed, I failed you failed, embarrassed wishing I can be somebody, but I am not up to standards with your oxford definition of defined by peers.

2011-04-21T23:50:00.002-04:00

Time and time again I fall down, loosing grip I keep trying to do right, but I am wrong, I am false I hold no form. I bear right, yet I end up left stuck in this capsule This kaleidoscope only has so many views, I can hope for a new re-imagining of this puzzle. picture perfect colors, picture perfect place, picture perfect. I am tried and it’s late and I just got a disputed case, reckless and alone I look for guidance to solve this case, hopefully I can go home.

Believe

2011-04-18T18:23:00.002-04:00

I waited outside until 5 am, dreaming of every possibility that could have me wondering what I did that made me plead.

The lonely drive, the lonely alley, the lonely brother, the lonely sister, the lonely wife, the lonely husband the family. Sitting outside, looking through the shade waiting, waiting hoping to get that relief, that they’re safe wandering back and forth, trying to get an answer for the mistakes that were made will believe anything just to get to the next day. Tomorrow they will say...

Follow me through this rain; run away, oh just follow through this rain the tears of my day that I drained the ground until the sewer cleared my memories take me forever dreaming. What did I do today, what did I do yesterday, what did I do with my life that took me to that day.

What can I say I am not gullible I just want to believe it’s all okay,
I want to believe were safe,
I want to believe that it will be that way forever.

Honestly is that bad to believe it, is it that bad to hold me is it that bad to hold on to what was lost, I will move on from this memory, but the worse is not what it seems, there was many times equaling positivity. Just one day understand that it’s not what it seems now I want to believe that one day now.

Mumford & Sons - Sigh No More (Live at Reading Festival 2010) - 1/9

2011-04-18T11:56:00.000-04:00

Santigold - Go (feat. Karen O)

2011-04-17T20:34:00.000-04:00

Not Sure

2011-04-17T11:11:00.002-04:00

I take a moment and breathe try to reach out to somebody something to feel to understand. Am I a monster? I feel I have a disconnection to everything like I am loosing or missing something, but the only thing I am loosing is my trust for anything and only thing I am missing is myself; yet I just don't care well that is a lie I care to much to much till it hurts unfortunately this is my biggest weakness that slows me down from doing/being something great. I have these standards expectations for what life should be, but maybe it is unreasonable, I am not the creator of this world so this I have no control over, I would like to, but who wouldn’t? I guess that is what choice is for create your life with choice of what you want and don’t. Although I think I am finally starting to give up on finding this choice for happiness I know writing this makes me weaker to society, but honestly I don't care I can’t tell you how many times in my life I have said those 3 words and been made fun of for that fact, I think it’s just a defense mechanism of some sort as you know I probably care more than anyone. I guess if you say something enough it comes true. I am not hiding I am pretty sure I want to be found, but by whom I am unsure, is it that righteous path or that darker spiral downward stair case I am unsure, but one thing I know are people for the most part with a few exception don't care about anything and seem to have this cover of being righteous meanwhile they have this mirror staircase that never ends downward it is like they can do an awful thing and black it out it's like they have no conscious is that possible? I have things yet that haunts me since I could remember around 10 years old, and as I get older maybe it's harder to let go since it stuck with me so long. All I see are a lot of lies, deceit, unfaithful people that batter about others behind there back and do even worse to get ahead? Protect them selves from who they really are? I am unsure, but if people are to be books and are to be open up that is one book nearly impossible to uncover. In my book I believe I am really open maybe to open scars exposed, to nearly everyone I come in contact with which is not many, which can scare or frighten many, but I believe to be harmless just looking for acceptance. I think I try my best is that the problem is I think and not know that I try my best? What is the answer I am not sure I should even ask I have this curiosity that haunts me I honestly wish I can say I don't want to know, but like water I feel the need to know to move on. I must have asked millions of questions, but aren’t questions good? I have a lot to learn I mean a lot I am way behind in this circle of life.

Be

2011-04-15T16:46:00.002-04:00

I lay on my side looking down at the ground, Silently yelling for attention won't you come hold my hand and whisper in my ear some motivation to escape this, i plead.

Black and red down the drain you broke my affection my connection, please set me free,I beg please.

All this dramatics, I panic, eager to abide for a commandment, to set me free. Won't you come away with me.

These characteristics small and stocky, tall and lanky why do you frighten me so hard to believe I just want to be me. No remorse just me, no foul play just me, no you just me, no disrespect just me.

I will beg please take me please no more harm for me shadow please break free let me be, please let me be alone i will be.

Tony

2011-04-13T22:37:00.002-04:00

Flaming, lightning, fighting, yelling let me see that laffy taffy, make me talk, make me walk, make me run, make meeee; I am moving like an animal cowardly through the deep green grass; I am astronomical with nothing to fear yet I have my crackly laugh, echoing violently near I wont hide, I won’t dine how about a glass of wine, I tipsy toe across the land falling down, oh so down on the ground how about a nap rain or shine never mind give me another glass of wine and I will sleep tonight silently for yearssss.

This is new

2011-04-13T22:18:00.001-04:00

This is new the fade that transitions from you to you. Walk don't run step up I am out and about leave me be I will talk when I feel the need. Used for morality, but your just a bunch of indecency. With every stroke I take the ink bleeds through hopefully cutting into what is left. As I string together Calm and steady erase the past and rewrite a future that is drawn perfectly together. Good day good night, goodbye whatever is on your mind because this is the last time I will ever hear your lies.

President of Czech Republic steals pen (Václav Klaus krade pero v Chile)

2011-04-13T09:21:00.000-04:00

Adolescents - INCUBUS NEW SINGLE!

2011-04-13T00:22:00.005-04:00

Wow has it been a while since I heard something new from the band known as Incubus and I am glad they're finally back to recording now time for the tour!

Adolescents by incubus

Mumford & Sons - Awake My Soul (Live)

2011-04-11T23:15:00.000-04:00

Mumford & Sons - White Blank Page (Bookshop Sessions)

2011-04-11T23:09:00.000-04:00

Crumpled

2011-04-11T23:08:00.002-04:00

We dreamed the world wouldn’t go we learned tomorrow will be a new dawn. Sought for the passing of the nuclear war the ground just crumpled up then we fell into the ozone. The after shock shook my bones and decapitated all that remained in my soul.

Waiting for the water to drip the oil clean and cleanse the aurora for all to see. Scattered a part truth be told the mausoleum held the secret deep below to be hidden in solitude a new awakening will emerge bursting through.

Where is the heart, the love the passion come together, I bundle closer yet get further apart. The stigma of my anatomy rallies forth and the damage is already done.

Popped

2011-04-10T22:07:00.002-04:00

You make my eyes pop, stomach drop butterflies make me fly no tears no fear no hiding in here. Twist and turn sleep tight give a little lullaby; sing a long to my heart beating up, beating down on a ride I will go miles high flying too the stratosphere. Near or far on a peak a mountain peak, gazing across the horizon sea. Sprinkle stars sparkle up the gleaming light smile bright sparks a journey where will go touring along now all I want tonight, tonight please, please let it be a silly bee buzz with me don’t forget what we’ve seen as the story just begins for eternity.

Fuck You UPS of BROOKLYN NY

2011-04-08T20:32:00.001-04:00

So below is out context and I am tired, but filed this half ass letter which can be a million times better if I had energy after stupid stressful day all for a pair a headphones that I love and should say need in my life to cope. Regardless somehow escalated to me filing a complaint with the better business bureau (BBB). I really wanted nothing today, but my package and I am not getting that and just want them to fix crappy companies in NY with ungrateful people who have good jobs(this isn't a janitor who you understand sometimes why he may be pissed off) and don't do them right.

Hi my name is Samuel Elbaz I live in Brooklyn, NY that should tell you already I am sure you know the people you work with in this area are between awful and we don't care. I am complaining about the issue with info notice xxxxx for further reference tracking # xxxx; I would give you the driver I am not happy with or some type of id #, but they make sure to not release that to a person who is filing this complaint, although I am pretty confident you can get it easily and when you look at the notes in my account and this complaint I am filling I am sure it will say nothing in my defense, meanwhile I did complain my heart out to my local place I am sure they will catch you up to date when you further look into it. Regardless I have to file this because of the multiple amount of bad service from deliveries that are to come to my house and the driver who does the drop offs. I swear we at this house receive packages a good amount of times one driver gets to the door there is another that never makes his way. He basically doesn't see a doorbell and then doesn't bother to knock and runs away with a tag left on the door. You have to give who ever in this house a time to get there if you even knock you are gone faster than the wind. Moving on to today I was expecting this package for a week waiting checking tracking 1000's times to say the least and finally I knew it was coming had it planned out for someone to be here waiting as they were and all of a sudden I get a call he came and ran as usual couldn't have been more than 20 minutes we noticed he came and immediately called tried to have him come back refused as always I told them I would pick it up from his truck of course he was not where he said he would be which the address was not even more than 2 blocks away he could have easily brought the package did a favor simply redelivered instead where was he when I ran from work searching like a detective for his brown truck I get a call he is on lunch, on lunch he knew I was coming could have met with me 2 seconds I was driving to him. Any how I have no solution to this problem being I wanted my package so bad today and that is not going to happen I mainly want to complain about the awful service and lies and long wait times for calls and answers in between, your company needs to handle things drastically better and I recommended new friendlier drivers people would do anything for a job and you have guys who don't even say hello work for you. This rant is going to long for my taste especially in a message and especially since the story is old since 12 pm today to about 8 pm trying to get my package. If you want call me and I will give you my view and story with any loopholes I might have. Thanks for reading Sam. P.S I know you will be biased to your own employee which is fine and understandable, but I also know he is not really doing the best he can or even good for that matter to make sure customers have enough time to the door and actually knocks loud or any possible indication of being at the door. This is NY it's LOUD so KNOCK LOUD.

New Black Eyed Peas VS Gym Class Heroes

2011-04-05T21:24:00.002-04:00

I don't know if it's just me, but it kind of sounds like Black Eyed Peas got a lot of influence from Gym Class Heroes, though it's not to say I don't like the song because I do, but if you get past the speed of the songs and slow it down I feel the same beat in place and rhythm.

VS

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Addiction Draft

2011-04-05T14:34:00.000-04:00

It’s an addiction an addiction it doesn’t really matter what addiction, I’m drawn in to this addiction whether it be a drug or a person I am addicted I need rehabilitation to get out of this addiction call the doctor before I overdose on this addiction.

I drive to this addiction like a flock of birds soaring in my overhead passing by as they drain the imagination in my mind to create a perfect atmosphere for my happy times; I need it to survive no matter how hard I try I keep gasping for more to crave my watering mouth once more. It is my never ending addiction to cope with this un-coping cause and it’s my addiction. Call the nurse back as I go in to shock with this withdrawal I am sweating it out, I am fading now my spirit is about to come out where is the ghost now he is just pretend flying around in my head oh god this addiction.

Alien Ant Farm - These Days

2011-03-27T10:52:00.000-04:00

Download to Donate @ Music For Relief

2011-03-23T22:36:00.003-04:00

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Contest Submission Poem KCC

2011-03-23T21:26:00.001-04:00

We rode the ferry around the outskirts of the land got pushed over the edge and floated above it all. Twist my world like the heart deceives; set a fire under my burns to eradicate the feelings that skinned me. A Tale is near…

A tale to tell when a heart is broken in the end, with love developed, emotions fold, scared, hiding in the shadows beneath the eternal sonata. Come forth as we capture sound to make emotions set free, do you believe?

Slowly walk beyond to see a tree just a seed bloomed to its destiny. Follow me, Follow me whisper in the wind catch the oxygen to breathe the message I speak, over the lake that glistens memories reflecting back at me. Do you remember me?

The time has come tick…tock… the seconds evolved to minutes as hours pass by and days fly by the clock is running tired of the years it's counting up and you are nowhere to be seen. Have I been forgotten?

I pleaded to eradicate the burns the scars no more, I whisper for forgiveness, I blow a wish over the lake hoping it reflects a possibility to remember the beauty that was shared, peacefully, awake me let this nightmare disappear and let the morning be a new beginning for you and I to watch over with a halo clean and free.

2011-02-26T21:38:00.001-05:00

Sweet passion, sweet desire please inspire can I be like Picasso before me and live up to which I quote "good artists copy, great artists steal", will I be an inferior or a superior what is my fire, what is my desire. I've held the pen, I've let the ink drip analyzed and came to the same prosperity. I made my mark it struck me as insufficient enough as these bank account funds. What is my destiny, am I speaking to conquer am I writing to amuse I spilled my cup and it's half full. What more can I do… I've journeyed around for answers no sanctuary, just my blank memory dimming the voice of hope.

Emperor empowered at the throne wondering will his dynasty remain in the wake of battle will I attack or will I quiver up. Let my voice reach out to gain power fight after fight. I want to inspire create the destiny to soar the skies no limit go beyond the horizon that is my destiny, remembrance for eternity.

Mason vs. Princess Superstar - Perfect (Exceeder)

2011-02-21T23:36:00.000-05:00

Jacqueline - Overrated (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)

2011-02-21T23:23:00.000-05:00

No Title

2011-02-20T19:12:00.001-05:00

These drugs keep me alive this alcohol fuels me to say the least I am alive; one day at a time as I kill the pain with these vicodins my heart is giving into it. My body is into it, I try to be better, but it's a part of me the jealousy the greed the animosity. The paranoia schizophrenia makes me not so alone when I am in need, delusions to say the least have me going happily, I am crazily addicted to the sorrow the hollowness that consumes me on the outside it's what's on the inside nobody seeks to believe.

Ideas I would love to portray, he believes paints a picture hangs it up in my galleria, many, many astray. In my galleria we are all works of art the colors to the shapes in a shiny frame hides the errors that run off the page. A lady on the frame yelling to a man right beside, yet it blares so loud nobody can understand a word she says. Misconstrued from the loudness she consumes trying to be heard nobody's listening they just want to be quiet and turn around and move on to something new.

Reached out sought it all, the overdosing on misery, will my life be blessed with a sleeping pill that forever will lay me to rest, pull the plug on me breathing or casketed up, I am ready for the end. Tomorrow is a new day, but tomorrow is the same day, I am not alive I am dead.

2011-02-19T17:00:00.001-05:00

Sitting in the corner, with a blanket closing my life I set forth with ambition to rise never fall, I slipped and fell, leaving me alone, I tried to rise, but the damage was formed. I lost all that I had the world spit me out as the ground broke my bones. I tried all I know and I left my soul floating above my home.

I lost my love, I lost my heart, I lost my soul, I lost all I know, It's not an excuse it's the truth, I have no hope no news to get me through. I have no friends nothing to lose, no one to care I just want to die no more living my life, I just want to die no more living my life.

Reaching forth I drove off the road spiraling out of control I spun to the ocean just below an undertow helping my cause underneath the sea. The coral went right through me, as the blue passed I knew nothing was left for me. I've gone to deep and I wanted nothing left to do with me.

No more living this life, no more living what I want to be I have to be what you want from me conformed to society eating me fucking riveting, just divide me break me apart I am a kitkat bar broken in four to be eaten and shit out and flushed away oh happy days, I am gone from myself I am gone from you, I am gone no more wishing, hoping to be what I am not I will be what I am best to be below never above crushed down compacted in my own animosity.

Draft Prologue

2011-02-19T13:11:00.001-05:00

Every day I wake up it is dark it's cold flashbacks of a past hit me, swallowing in my own mind the darkness of memories awake me. It was a new year the night has just left and the morning began still I haven't slept for days, I've rested, but I never truly felt I've let go of the day. The day I lived the same as all a routine of nothingness a hollow life follows me into my bed as my eyes flicker throughout the night, I wake up consistently with these voices swindling time and time again keeping me wide awake; yet these aren't haunting memories of an event that was dramatizing, nothing of the sort it was the memories of a good time spent, when life was just life and I enjoyed it and I looked forward to the new venture that might take place, it was the memory of I at my best long backed up just reminding me that I have nothing left.

Shadows

2011-02-13T19:57:00.018-05:00

I tried to record this 100 times, but the fact of the matter is my voice sucks, more than I hoped for, I am always congested sounding and really just pisses me off, anyways I will put the beat so if you want to listen and read it's probably the best it will be for now, until I figure out a way to put it together. Anyhow the beat is not mine it was Produced by Mart85 of AtomicBeats (http://www.shadowville.com/121537/genres/rnb-beats/shadows-with-hook). Lyrics are mine though Anyhow below is the video with the song attached.

Verse 1

I woke up today with an act an act of perseverance a place for you, a place for I, a place to be in holy matrimony… unfortunately all I seem to see are the loved ones from the past enslaved to the ground in desperate similarities, desperate times leaving to criminal minds, masquerading within the night trying to survive; and to my surprise I have been becoming a masked body of lies trying to rest peacefully, but the more I bottle up the more alone I become.

A bottle of emptiness twisted and turned from the love at heart; to the reaper who steals leaving me in a state of solitary, once whole now just a shadow of mist trying to hold on for a little, little bit of sincerity a little speck of happiness to confront me to say it will be okay when we all fall down, but when we emerge will the feelings hold true or will they be cemented back down with the rest of the pact that fell down, down, down.

Chorus

Verse 2

Passion drifts, passion wakes, and passion took my heart away I have too much to say…each and every day by the end of the night I am contemplating with visions so real I can imagine being there. Standing high on a bridge, watching it all come forth feeling so real like if I was dreaming, but I am wide awake I see it in my eyes so real that I can feel…I see the image as if it happened before in another time like it was the same day just yesterday with a new choice for me to make, what can it mean with a gun or a noose I been a part of it all drowning me so deep what can it be, help me now or fold and walk away with or without me I will feel the same the world crashing around me… with the darkness haunting; and forcing me to sink hoping a float can pull me above the sea for a new perseverance.

Chorus

Mini Verse 3

You make a line what do you have to say I am done speaking today… write it out in your mind pencil it down be the star that draws the dots to close the gap that separates us.

2011-02-12T21:23:00.001-05:00

I wake up the story unfolds the tears of blood are puddling up. All day every day I make an enemy lost in tragedy that person is me by the end of the night I am contemplating suicide, I plead for forgiveness, but I am to in despair to believe tomorrow will help me. Followed my heart from the land of sun to the land behind shadowed in the back. Quote the great be the great I am the great, who the fuck am I fighting myself, fighting with you the story keeps repeating a page missing a page re-written to gain some faith.

We share the sky don't erase me I'll wake tired, trailing behind the rocks erupting share with me all you know. Knowledge is the key that set me free the literacy come forth; set me free, free a place for you and me, just free for all to be can you set me free. Wake me up I'm falling again into a landfill seeping in, unknown where it goes oh no here I go.

Please just, please, just, please just listen, listen hard, listen strong, listen to me I don't know why, I don't know how, I don't know where, I don't know, I don't know I just don't know.

I offer peace the nobility to all to find a cure break forth rise up stand, don't flake make judgment to pass for all to be weak in a paralyzed state; when you stand on the sidelines of eternity, judge for your own mistakes a cure to heal a cure to spread.

Linkin Park Fan Favorites Come to Rock Band // Blog // Rock Band®

2011-01-10T22:17:00.000-05:00

Linkin Park Fan Favorites Come to Rock Band // Blog // Rock Band®

2011-01-07T23:59:00.001-05:00

This is my little confinement next to the Indian in the cupboard hoping high running the race trying to stay ahead of the game just breaking the laws to stay wide awake. This is me no more stopping me I been locked away trying to be who I knew I couldn't be, setting the setting to make a placement to be what I need to be. Try to take it away; try to break me down take it now I have blood on the ground staining the ground no one's helping me now just step over me as I make a name for me now just don't say you helped me now.

Freedom, Freedom is what they praised to me no more slavery yet I seem to be a slave to this society I must of unintentionally missed the ballad of consent that let me out of this poverty, looking for a new era where I need not be who I was, but who I am I signed my signature on the dotted line to my freedom to be though it just seems like misery.

Linkin Park - "In The End"

2011-01-01T14:18:00.000-05:00

New P!nk Vs Old Pink - Love them both.

2010-11-18T23:40:00.002-05:00

Talented as she has always been expressing feelings through vocals that hit home all the time. New Vs Old really just a new and old song, but I like the sound of versus, regardless love you Pink you have always been a top female performer for me.

Live Bonus of one of my favorite songs from Pink.

Bliss into the world draft

2010-11-17T22:54:00.001-05:00

Bliss into the world, drop to the floor trace my line architecturally designed across the dead bodies that lye. Feelings of bereave, taken without a doubt subconsciously wishing death upon the heavenly stars across the night, stolen my soul, laughter to fear as cries turn to blood, what you want from me you've already taken the best part of me.

The transition to come is the step I won to be categorized and remembered as number one; Commemorating the act, climbing back from the fallen bricks to the fire in front, my lungs collapsed crumpling down the air diminished blackout, blackout blinded now.

OCT.27

2010-10-27T00:42:00.001-04:00

Window crack, window break, window color me in; reflect the light to the dark. Wish me away in a well or wish me well as long as you wish for me I know someone thinks of me gee swell. Find me now in a ditch, dig me up or dig me down just don't dirty me, but be courteous and cover me. Lost and found I am not around, lost nobody sought me out to be found. Regardless of the magician tricks the illusion is in a flick of the wrist, 1.2..3… what's better than a disappearing trick.

Sympathy

2010-10-02T18:29:00.001-04:00

Hold me close to home where I shine and the blue birds fly high, the tears comes down and you feel a little safe and insecurity rains, you knew this isn't home no, no It's sympathy. Where the guilt doesn't hurt, but let's you go in the cold wind draft coming in; I am going home no home he says just sympathy, just sympathy.

This is my reality, my deputy, my command and I am whole while the world falls in the palm of my hand. I call it all sympathy, no demise just holding high, give it a chance, just give it a chance because this is where I stand, there is no home, there is no land, there is bodies piling everywhere so I say give it a chance give it a chance; sympathy in my hands believe me please because tomorrow might not come for long. It takes to heal, it takes time to heal let time feel sympathy, yeah, yeah sympathy yeah, yeah that is here.

Aaron Lewis "Country Boy" on SIRIUS XM The Wilkow Majority

2010-10-01T19:29:00.000-04:00

Draft 2

2010-09-01T04:03:00.001-04:00

You took from me my heart my soul and my body. Ran it into the ground where dirt covered me buried me alive nobody can see me I am darker then the black hole that sunk the entire planet into desistance in an instance. Now I am submerged alone in my drowning misery of loneliness existence take me read me I am an open book no story to unfold within me.

Late at night howling wondering if there is anything left in me as I am draining in the sewer I am flowing with the dirt that makes up this industry. You can speak it if you like it take it if you want it, but don't abuse it if you don't need it so fuck it I am alone I demise my existence.

You think I dream this I live it each day in my own symphony I lost it I battle to the death of it. You can hurt me you can kick me, but I will live through it. The calling is to feed into it and break whatever is left of me, but I will eat it and shit it out of me like the bull shit you feed into me.

New draft

2010-09-01T03:30:00.001-04:00

Where did it go so long ago we were young kids growing up with so much excitement we could break the walls down with our fist, now we walk around like the wall is made of brick. Hurt with confusion trust is garnished by a dream that is toxic to the brain, bringing us down when we were up and bringing us to ground when we already fell down.

Spoken in a dialect we can all understand I want to be near close to the ear singing a lullaby into my little daughter's ear, sleeping so softly I am aware of what it felt like to be floating on air, with no world to fear just the breath of the cold front air.

So when the world is up do you fall down, is the world against you or is it that if you think if it's too good to be true you fall like a loose screw.

Paramore - Where the Lines Overlap @ Summer Sonic 09, Japan

2010-08-31T22:34:00.000-04:00

HIM - Killing Loneliness [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

2010-08-27T20:08:00.000-04:00

Depressed

2010-08-27T19:55:00.002-04:00

Hello all,

Lately depression is closing in and I think I might just cause it to myself, right now I am just so bored right now and I hate how I keep holding myself back from hanging out with people who invite me out. I am not sure what I should do ever, like should I go or not, one part of me just wants to go to keep my mind off of the person I love, but the other part just wants to wait around for that person, I really just don't want to do anything unless it is with someone I love or really just a one on one, I don't like being in groups of people I am not sure if I really know how either. I know it all sounds foolish, I just wish I can have something to do all the time. It seems like everyone else's life is so eventful, but when I try to make my life eventful and go out I really just don't even feel like I fit in. Really I think I wish I can have the mind some people have, like they just have these hobbies that consume them or it's the fact that they put themselves before anyone else, but I am so old fashion maybe I am not sure if that is what it is, I happen to just put anyone I love before me. Like should I be open and go with the wind or remain the same. Just the same doesn't work well for me at the moment; it just makes me feel so alone, but when I go with the wind I feel like I am not free, like I might be hurting someone because if someone did it to me it would hurt me, but I know other people don't feel that way, but since I only know how I feel and it bothers me when people do it to me I say I don't want to be that person cause it hurts, yet nobody cares; and I rather hurt myself then someone else, no matter who it is. My head just works that way and I refuse to take a pill with some lies they feed about a chemical imbalance I just think my head is structure this way for a reason, not everyone is the same, we all have different thinking patterns so why take a pill I want to feel good by myself.

Regardless Loneliness seems to always be around in my heart somewhere, which leads me to this infinite depression unless I am with someone I care about, but I am not allowed to be with those people all the time, because they don't feel the same way I do, I think it just has to do with a failure of acceptance in my life in the past, that haunts me. I feel a lot like the song Killing Loneliness by H.I.M, there is nothing I rather do than that, but is anyone out there for me that has that same feeling or will towards me. I don't feel that complicated as a person, money means very little to me, I love to drive endlessly not in traffic that just sucks; and I want to be able to be with someone I love no matter where on earth, just me and her. You see it is about 8 pm EST and I am just alone in my house with nothing to do, I use to play video games to pass the time, but I don't care to anymore. I love to play drums, but I need to buy a new kit, though that really isn't in the budget right now; I am pretty sure I am quite awful at it, but I think banging the shit out of them helps me feel better. Regardless the only real thing I know in my life right now is I am depressed, broken in many ways and don't know when I will feel whole. Just something so big is missing from my life and I can't grasp it, well I can grasp it pretty simple actually it's called an insufficient amount of love I am just laughing at myself, for that being the reason, it's the dead honest truth though, but for now I just work my days and take them one at a time and hope something changes up, like an amazing event will take place, maybe I just seen too many movies, but I will see I guess.

Mindless Self Indulgence - Never Wanted To Dance [TBM Remix]

2010-08-24T07:24:00.000-04:00

Say Anything- Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too

2010-08-20T22:25:00.000-04:00

Hey Miss Jordan this one is for you!

2010-08-18T12:47:00.001-04:00

If you read this blog one last time I just want to say I am sorry for the words that hurt you I never meant to I just didn't know how to deal with the hurt of what happened and the acceptance of losing you. A part of me will always love you and I hope that remains true for you as well. I thank you for the respect of understanding and if you ever need help I will always be around to help you.

Love, Sammy

Linkin Park - The Catalyst (official version)

2010-08-02T20:06:00.000-04:00

Fucking Finally!!!

Love Dove

2010-07-26T23:28:00.001-04:00

Love Dove pristine white with a spot above your bum; feathers that make me laugh to feathers that plush down ah…swish. Whistle a fairy tale melody soft and sweet you know the way it makes me feel ah…floating on air. Divine, yes divine I say precious like a ring around a finger tip, blessed he who commands the to be for eternity, ah…beautifully spiritually. Splendid dove, splendid love, little steps to make me blush, too much red might cause a fuss or am I just a putz ah…foolish enough, you have wings and I swept you up, fly away ah…I got it up,up,up!

(you know I try to write something more happy then usual and just sounds funny to me when I do, but whatever I like it (lol), they say it's better to laugh at yourself then get mad at yourself, well actually I don't know if they say that, well I am saying that. Hope someone likes.)

EXPLICT//UNCUT M.O.P. - Ante Up Remix (featuring Busta Rhymes, Tefl...

2010-07-25T21:59:00.001-04:00

I will start by saying I love YouTube for music! finding classic music history of myself to recover what I was connected to like a home movie and it is nice to remember where I was at a time. I was much more Hip-Hop oriented back then, I still am in some sense, just I don't come across new music that handles so well with time. Regardless a classic from the 2000 era for me at least.

Unpredictably Awakened

2010-07-25T21:42:00.001-04:00

Unpredictable love rewind time, take me back to the day it was you and I, just you and I. I am sitting here alone in the darkness in fear, memories corrupting in surprise. Walking daily down the line wondering what step caused all the lies, all the lies.

Awakened, awakened no more wasted time.

Awakened, awaked I want nothing more than to be awaken from this dream.

Tell me, Tell me no more nightmares you choose to be diminished,

The requiem of my dream awakened, no more bells silence is the vitality.

Imagination confined in solitude I know I shouldn't be so retracted from my relapse until I collapse I'll be the one in black. The thought of you is getting me sick what else is left to do other than block it out. I guess the knot was too tight for you. I'll catch the tension in a box wrap it up in the knot that didn't quite fit your lifestyle. Let's get on…

Awakened, awakened no more wasted time.

Awakened, awaked I want nothing more than to be awaken from this dream.

Tell me, Tell me no more nightmares you choose to be diminished,

The requiem of my dream awakened no more bells, silence is the vitality.

One more chance, once more a day driven with passion a night driven in sadness, take it command it, you ready for this. Blow it up in an explosion of fire of desire have your eyes dilated like a Japanese anime character thrown in the air soaring beyond the sailor moon. Hands flowing, heart crescent, body loving it. The realization that passion is no more and the night has set in, my vitals are low and I have

Awakened, awakened no more wasted time.

Awakened, awaked I want nothing more than to be awaken from this dream.

Tell me, Tell me no more nightmares you choose to be diminished,

The requiem of my dream awakened no more bells, silence is the vitality.

(This is a little different for me in a way I just want to say this song/poem thing defiantly has influences in it really everything I do has some type of influence, so if you're like I kind of heard that before you might have, really might not be any in there. Subconsciously I think I write stuff sometimes and look at it and am I like did I steal that, cause in the back of my head I heard someone else say that same word so gets me kind of like dazed. A lot of my vocabulary come from song or books and are connected to them all so even when I talk in normal conversation songs stir up in my head or quotes. Weird, I know, but makes me think we all plagiarize in a strange way unless I start making up my own words like Snoop Dogg I am not sure a way around this.)

Ricky Blaze- Just You & I (Hold yuh riddim) Jan 2010

2010-07-24T17:47:00.000-04:00

Write,Write,Write

2010-07-24T11:47:00.001-04:00

I have gotten to a point I just want to write, write and write. Like never ending, I feel as if I ramble so much as it is; and I am not sure what to do. If I wrote the way I really wanted to it would run on forever and make no sense in the slightest, but hey nothing really makes sense does it. I want to shake so much off my back already and I can't help that. Like closure for myself, but is there even such a thing of closure? I started to think it would never happen in any instance I want to somehow never break in anyway, but nobody ever wants to do that. Seems everyone is just so selfish and they all just use one another. I hate that I have to confine to that, because no one I have met yet in my life is like me in that sense. I just want to be me no more rules, civil rules I can deal with, but I don't want to be in this world eat or be eaten alive anymore. I don't express that feeling anymore I grew up with that study and let me tell you it is a bunch of bull shit, all it consist of is hate and hurting other people. Forget the hurt already, I still believe somewhere it's possible to live pleasantly without the sacrifice of someone else eventually I hope to find that.

For now time goes like the wind blows passing by with nobody seeing it. I encounter many beautiful people in life, everyday in fact. Sadly, like a hidden undertone some type of society instance is needed to abide by to communicate with them. It would be nice to walk up to some people and say hello and just talk without the thought of them thinking you're crazy or have sometime of hidden agenda or even getting looked down upon for doing such an obscene thing. I wonder everyday why I was even put here I am sure tons do that, although more so then that I wonder why I don't have the intense animal instinct as many others to survive in a certain sense. I do believe we are all animals in one way somehow connected, evolution they say. Ehh regardless of that, I just want to be me and be accepted for that without some consistent backlash of why do you feel this way or why do you do that. I have no idea we are all built differently who knows why we think that way. I don't put thoughts in my head they just pop there in a subconscious matter, yes I can control my action, but my thoughts will control themselves; I believe whoever reads this feels the same in the sense of where feelings and thoughts come from they don't develop they're just there.

Maybe I need explain that a little more because in a way they do develop or are already developed possibly, but something triggers them to be presented to you. It's is like you're oblivious then all a sudden a rush of information runs towards you at a fast pace, leaving you in a shock of why, what, confusion? Wow I am kind of stuck here; I can say that much my vocabulary isn't broad enough to explain how this works to me. I would love to have this sound more clearly, I guess a little deciphering on your account will need to be accounted for.

Try an exercise possible, just walk around a mall or park just look at random things around and see what pops into your head about people and even scenery. Then see if a weird thought presents itself. Maybe it won't and my mind is just totally in a different region that would never be explained. Anyhow goodbye for now that is enough speaking for now, enjoy your day!

Love,

Sam

Express Yourself

2010-07-24T11:08:00.001-04:00

Drowning in words, scribble them all over from paper to walls on the subway.

A classic typography, writing open your hand let the pen take command form a new font that expresses your free land.

Graffiti telling a story through spray paint exposing news in a new old medium of media.

Tattoo, focus on the needle as the skin scar's remembrance of a new age time; let the ink sink in as the picture develops on your canvas.

Express yourself colorfully; transform to be who you want to be. The ink will be your pattern letters to murals will draw the world on the world.

Express yourself vividly to magically, express yourself before you forget, express yourself happiness to sadness. Express the museum trapped inside your head.

Write to Freedom

2010-07-23T18:31:00.001-04:00

Teddy Bear soft, cuddly and mushy hold me tightly.

Stress reliever let's bounce and jump around the house.

OH NO! I dropped that pretty vase please don't be mad at me, sorry pretty baby.

Art was never perfect anyways.

We can peace it together, would you like to have peace.

Sometimes running amuck makes a little bit of a dirty mess.

Just keep in mind everyone has dirty laundry one way or another.

Forgiveness is accepted, but I rather clean up together, do you want to clean?

Simply put it together is better than not together, do you agree or disagree one way or both ways, you choose.

(Hahaha, I don't even know where I am going with this I just have a lot of words that need to pass to get to what I really want to say…till next time viva la vida)

'It's Kind of a Funny Story' - Trailer |HD|

2010-07-22T08:08:00.000-04:00

I don't usually post movie trailers, but this one is an exception. Trailer says it all. Also music video as well the song is amazing!

Murs-Break up (The OJ song)

2010-07-20T06:12:00.000-04:00

I couldn't not post this I am loving this song. The Lyrics are spot on in a break up and flow perfectly.

The Smiths - Asleep (Music Video). Perks of being a wallflower dedication.

2010-07-19T07:47:00.002-04:00

So after reading a ton of my new wonderful book and Charlie suggesting this song of its infinity magnitude I had to of course, listen to it with some devotion. Funny because the song has been on my iPod for a while now, but anyways it is a wonderful song none the less.

Thanks Charlie (Perks of being a wallflower).

Umm, I really have no idea what this is, but it’s developed in my head as a rap.

2010-07-18T21:39:00.001-04:00

Take a stick shove it up your ass build a tent camp out until the wolves run a trail scent right up to the bull shit your feeding into this world eat you alive and spit you out. Oh your yelling now help, help, but the sound of this chainsaw cutting down this tree is unfortunate for you timber land and fall. Why am I digging a pit in this sand the moat already has me surround in my adolescent perimeter shared by a sandman.

My head is killing buzzing around like a bee stinging; my ears are bleeding it might be this distorted music I blur into my ear drum that shocks the equilibrium causing a seizure, this imbalance has got me all ticky tock, tock what does that clock say is it my birth date or just a Sunday fun day. Where am I?

This heart drive has crashed, get the flask will relive this pain in an instantaneous control of our bi-polar collar side to agree with whatever the fuck I have to say. I am not insane just crazy when I shred on this membrane to get where I need to be this operation has gone chaotic I have just ranked psychotic.

Black and Dark was not my intention just an exposure of this undeveloped film that is rolled up under my bed it has gotten old and expired. I am sorry for all the harm I have done I am sorry for the time I ran a runt I was a child getting raised by wolves an animal is all I knew. So I apologize for my survival move, I know when things are loose save yourself and forget everything else. That won't happen I am done with it all just a lone wolf howling at the moon wanting it to be known my present is not gone for too long.

Dreaming of Love by Lights Resolve a better version

2010-07-18T04:39:00.000-04:00

This is probably the only thing going on in my head right now. I can write a bunch of other crap, but ehh I like music better.

The Tourist Lane

2010-07-16T07:50:00.000-04:00

Good Charlotte - Little Things

2010-07-15T07:54:00.000-04:00

One Sock

2010-07-14T20:13:00.001-04:00

I walk the streets constantly waiting for someone to question me. Today I am wearing my usual pants and shirt, but one item is a little out of the ordinary. This little rainbow was handed down to me from a friend, whom got it from his father who got it from a friend and so it continued. It has leaped generations now in a tradition known as the ring on his or her foot. A tie die sock just one a miss-match lost from the pack. The people whom wore this sock on a special date brought luck to the bearer, the luck of a special someone to enter their life.

It was a day in March he was going to wear his colorful sock to brighten up his life. When a stray cat he brought into his house started unraveling the sock, shredding it to confetti all over the house, blinkingly torn apart both literally and metaphorically his hope was done for.

Going to sleep in distress he just kept thinking in his head, what to do oh what to do, this can't be true, it can't be true, please don't be true. He slept through the night unpleasantly with his thoughts in disarray. He knew in his head not to blame the cat for the attack, he once was a stray so he always welcomed strays. Just wondered why things never went the right way.

Unraveled apart all over the carpet floor were the colors of what use to be his golden ticket. He knew not to get down from the miss-happening, what did get him down was the feeling of destroying a legacy. He told his friend of what happened in the sincerest with an apologetic tone in his voice, with a muffled undertone he could barely speak another word. His friend knew it wasn't his fault so he said I know you didn't do it intentionally; and assured him it would be okay with some chitter chatter to calm his nerves he went about his day, still in a little spell of lost he tripped and fell.

Down on his knees he was scraped, hands on the floor with rubble seeping into his finger tips. As he lifted himself up, slowly and cautiously with dirt in his face he was a little disoriented with a blurry point of view. A young lady asked are you ok as he slowly looked up he noticed something in the glimpse a tie die sock one in fact right there on her left foot. He was astonished, he thought he was dreaming, when the lady nudge him on his shoulder asking are you all right once again he was in shock for a second until he said your sock, she said what in a state of confusion my sock? Yes it is tie die just one of them, she laughed and said oh yeah that, by mistake to many colors to much bleach wasn't a smart laundry decision that day, you know how that can be. Funny I had a sock just like that just yesterday, oh yeah with a smirk on her face she said opening him up to an invitation.

Yeah funny story actually in a retrospect, I was actually really down just a few minutes ago before I noticed you, she was flattered how so? Well you see my friend gave me a sock like that yesterday for good luck a tradition friends and family have grown accustomed to and sadly I let a stray cat in my house who had a fiesta with it, so I was sure it was a bad sign, since it's suppose to give good luck. Well who said it didn't she replied?

He smiled and asked would you like to get coffee, she replied I am kind of in a rush, he looked down for a moment, with a smile she said, but I am free for dinner, I'll be sure to wear my new lucky charm, with a laugh they parted ways, until the night where they had a splendid night which would last a lifetime; and with a new lucky charm to be passed down keeping the sock bright as a rainbow in the sunlight.

Alien

2010-07-14T08:34:00.001-04:00

Alien that is what she said to me a little green a little different a little alien I can believe in you if you want me to, I am a stranger, but I come in peace.

Alien I will open up express my life from a unique point of view, alien I have feelings to don't distract from your obscurity.

Alien would you be so kind to join me for a cup of tea it has raspberries a little sweet I think it's a delicacy. Alien have you ever wondered what it would be like if we were treated like a delicacy? Well actually, never mind that.

Alien let's explore this place that surrounds this beautifully placed horizon, orange is a pretty shade wouldn't you say. Alien you have so much to learn I would love to teach you, now let us go, go, go!

Alien that is what she said to me funny in some ways she never even asked my name.

Just writing to free my head (7/13/10)

2010-07-14T00:55:00.001-04:00

More spectacular then the fireworks in the sky I'll explode radiating stars in your beautiful eyes. Spirits are high and they are flying right by your side. Will you have this last dance Donna Summer will make it last. Forever and ever me and you what would you like to do there is a party in the bedroom for a night or two.

Oh yeah, tell me what you want to do, we can travel anywhere just me and you just tell me what you want to do. Oh yeah baby, baby tonight just me and you wrapped around under the moon, it just don't get no better.

How you doing now, make a wish everyday has a gift with a smile from you, like a puppy my ears perk up from the sound of your voice your wish is my command a special occasion is always on demand. It just don't get no better. So wrap me up.

(haha, I really just like to jot words down, I have so much on my mind good and bad I am trying so hard to get focused. One day I hope all this stuff makes sense)

So what time is it again?

2010-07-13T01:59:00.001-04:00

So what time is it again?

Lately people I encounter in life seem to have a sudden change of heart in a passing hour. Are we all bi-polar? The amount of change in direction is so remarkable to me I watch contradictions all day I am baffled. One day I am noticing a strong desire for certain things whether it be people or an in eminent object, which is funny because when they get it they run it through the dirt until it's broken, with no remorse of what they have done. Have people lost conscious of what they do that they can jump from one point to another in seconds thinking no effect has taken place.

I am for sure guilty of this I admit my constant need for a filling void in my life which has gotten to a point of a bad hobby; and when that temporary fill breaks I am so broken recovery is just a temporary fix away. I have finally slowed down enough to let everything settle in, it really hurts, but do we know anything about ourselves or do we just know what we see?

It just bothers me like I have done in the past I watch other people just try to fill voids so they go to any measures to fill that void. I am in no way saying not to fill it in, but you should really think before you jump into something what is the ultimate goal you're trying to reach from it. Because watching that item make someone else happy and feel as if you're missing something is not necessarily going to fill what is missing for you, if anything it can possibly make problems for you that you didn't even realize before you embarked on it.

The truth I am not really sure where I am even going with this it's really late at night right now as for always when I am writing or really early (I am laughing at myself), anyways I am just in conclusion seeing people change their mind way to drastically lately one day they love something the next they are loving something else, but that rush effect whether you plugged the hole for a little bit, one day you're going to slow down and you will have too much to process at once.

P.S. I just like to write when so much is on my mind, I know everything I write is pretty vague, but as are my thoughts I have opposing ideas in my head and really counter myself in everything so for that reason I don't ever play sides in the fact; Just the one that makes you happy.

JSam

Scattered Thoughts

2010-07-10T19:50:00.001-04:00

I feel a lost of words the only thing that comes to my lips is profanity. I wish I had a vocabulary so broad I can describe sprits within, but every time I open up my mouth nothing can be said that makes me satisfied by this tragedy.

It was a day in January my life turned from happily to terribly and from terribly to happily. A mix and match scattered me, focus is non-existent confusion is a part of me. Nothing is inspiring me trying to walk a straight line instead of breaking it. Discrepancy has me drawn pictured perfect in a world of two sides.

Writing is keeping me alive, yet drives me down digging a hole deeper and deeper into the ground; with each word I speak a bridge collapses with no mark lefts to know history subsist. I am not encouraged I am not discouraged I have no courage I am the lion looking for the wizard to grant me my wish so I can walk through this bricked road.

I can't complete what I started I always fall an inch short before the goal line, the score board lights don't even read clear it died out a second ago. No replacing the bulbs I'll sleep it off and wait for the electricity to shock me from my coma state, rejuvenating for another play.

We are broken-paramore-lyrics

2010-07-10T19:12:00.000-04:00

Today is just not my day (07/10/10)

2010-07-10T17:52:00.001-04:00

I am back at square one again what is the root of this is a body of openings closed off from dialyses a stream of shit that just won't get filtered out in a sensible way so I bleed to part ways.

Staked at the cross I am burning in the shade rather than this sun wave. Throw me in the incinerator let me turn to ash scatter me across the fireplace, I am enraged from all this pain if I ever see you I might just break your neck. Something is lurking an evil seed of evil deeds no angel is saving me.

My teeth are grinding it's going to be a grind house in here in a second or two I am going to rip you apart thread to needle believe that, sharp as an edge this will hurt, but feel good to you, you're a sword after all cutting out people's hearts and not even having the decency to bury the body parts.

I want you to tear till you bleed and watch in the mirror as I smile in disbelief, pain is love and pain is here to stay so there is no running away. Fuck my words; fuck what I say, fuck you and fuck that pawn in your pocket he will die in given time anyways.

I scrambled from the underground indulging in my common interest of love, hate and pain it comes full circle an eclipse in the sky darkens my life, but is beautiful in sight whenever viewed in its entirety. Aww I love it, I hate it; I am it. Point the finger and blame this shit on me I am a scapegoat and have been for a century.

Moon Shadow Flower

2010-07-10T15:37:00.001-04:00

Moon shadow flower brighten the colors that surround me take away the darker ones and blossom to the end. Forget the room you learned to love, forget the memories that hold you down, forget the day that you went away, forget the bottle that brought you here forget everything it's a new day.

7/10/2010

2010-07-10T14:06:00.001-04:00

The window opens, the door shuts my blinds are closed and the mood is struck. The wind whispers creeping behind, Shivering cold with my blanket rolled up. Dim and dark a ghost drifts in the corner of my eye to hide blindsided, farewell goodbye.

Little Figurine

2010-07-06T08:14:00.001-04:00

Little figurine can I wind you up, little figurine come take a walk.

Little figurine you been around the world, little figurine let's make our mark.

Little figurine when you fall down, little figurine I'll be right there.

You're my little figurine beautifully crafted, little figurine with a chip on your shoulder.

Little figurine we all have scars that shouldn't heal, little figurine this is our history.

Little figurine it always feels like yesterday; And little figurine it has been 10 long years.

Little figurine can I wind you up, little figurine lets walk 10 more years.

Little figurine don't get scared, little figurine I am your helping hand.

Little figurine can you remember what we did yesterday?

Little figurine we traveled the world, little figurine we had no fear.

Little figurine no fear with a helping hand, little figurine I will always be here and wind you for many more years.

Little figurine I solemnly swear.

Alone

2010-07-05T21:22:00.001-04:00

Digging underneath my finger nails dirt is building up. I try to clean it up, yet it keeps retracting back. I wake up at 6 am wishing you called, Let down by a hollow echoing sound of nothingness bouncing off the walls.

Why can't I find a lady that I can make smile to light up my room every time she lies by my side. A lady that will go through the hard times and harder times just knowing will make it out better then we started so will smile together and patiently wait.

Feeling alone I can't help, but feel this way. Other peers I have encounter never feel the same if you're out there I am here waiting the same way so don't feel alone. Mistakes have been made don't bear the burden of things that can't be controlled, let faith take its course I patiently wait.

Help me find that special place the message is relayed from person to person you will find that somebody to take the leap of faith with you no matter what the destination. With a reply back any destination with you is the place I want to stay.

I can write a passage that takes you on a journey that will move you when standing still. She said that you take me on a journey whenever I think of you and I never stand still with you. I laugh a passage is just a battle within yourself fighting to be free. Nothing makes sense I said.

My days alone have made me worry about am I who I say I am what should I do, a job, friends, hobbies all seem like a passing time to distract me from what I really want. Love is just beneath the surface trying to break free blinding me from me so I stay alone making sure I am healthy to see.

She is a precious gem that I want to sparkle clear, but I know the time is not right and distractions keep cascading me clashing on my moves so I ignore until it builds up and I fall; I will not deny I have a vulnerable soul, I do know it makes me who I am so I am happy by that fact. Doesn't mean because I fall out of control and hurt easily I am less of a person I just am who I need to be. If you want to bury your nails in dirt enjoy the rock you sharpen to a blade, I rather be feathered down plush to rest my head softly.

Race

2010-07-04T15:40:00.001-04:00

I am paralyzed in the words I should display outspoken I say fuck you, in my head I hate you; in my heart I love you and my body just wants to fuck you. Sad and alone together and mad, the formula is all wrong.

Speak the truth what the fuck do you do question, questions, questions do you have any answers. Games, games, games they said, played, played, played is what we did. Is there even a clear winner, used from the start, used to the end vice versa goes both ways. Troublesome we made it nobody to blame just our hearts at play.

Fuck history, let it die with the rest of the past destroyed and ignored. We all just love to ignore the problems instead of confronting it. A sick sad little world kill or be killed that is the prime survival instinct of the animal within.

Kill or be killed

An eye for an eye

Destroyed before destroyed

Keep your head down speak in undertone and you can stay alive

Don't we all just love to be alive to survive instead of trust and last?

Static Revenger & Richard Vission ft. LUCIANA 'I Like That'

2010-06-29T08:56:00.000-04:00

Maddi Jane - Breakeven (Falling to Pieces) by The Script

2010-06-29T08:49:00.000-04:00

Holy crap kids are insane these days. This girl is 11 with crystal cut vocals. I swear song almost out does the original version.

Fly Away (Rough Draft (Work in progress))

2010-06-29T08:11:00.001-04:00

A mosaic with wonders to unlock beneath all the colors god is an artist.

Glowing like a goddesses, heaven has come down on me…now take me up.

Fly away with me

Further than any life has flown before

Fly away with me

No where I rather be

Just fly away.

A new door has opened up within a new world created individually by creative personality.

A book that I would love to open and read will you share with me.

Take me inside the pages color me in.

Fly away with me

Further than any life has flown before

Fly away with me

No where I rather be

Just fly away.

DJ Cotts & DJ Ravine - Tea, Crumpets and Hardcore + USA Tour Details

2010-06-29T07:47:00.000-04:00

Love the new mix really fun, sounding. It is long, but enjoyable to the end.

A Perfect Place

2010-06-26T18:16:00.001-04:00

Hold me when all feels old.

Hold me when you feel alone.

Hold me and I will be, yes I will be your majesty.

Let's be king and queen from sapphire to ruby's grand marine.

We can travel the seven seas; will make new discoveries.

That is my wish for destiny to grant me.

A perfect place,

A new adventure,

Just you and me.

Hold me when the map directed me the wrong way.

Hold me I am sorry for all my mistakes.

Hold me I will be, yes I will be your universe.

Let's be the sun and the moon orbit around the galaxy.

We can travel light years, creating history.

That is my wish for destiny to grant me.

A perfect place,

A new adventure,

Just you and me.

A perfect place…a new adventure…just you and me…

Snow sparkling glitter shine diamonds underneath melting a new flake to replace.

2010-06-25T20:16:00.001-04:00

Fluffy as a bunny you can sink right in.

Roll me up I am soft and cuddly lay down I will make you an angel.

Treat me right I will sparkle in the sun like a diamond in the rough.

Leave your shoes at the door I have been stepped on too much dirtying me up.

I like to shine with a glitter I don't like to be bitter.

Just be careful about pouring salt on me it can melt me.

If you let it seep in for too long I will disappear before a new flake can replace me.

Michael Bublé - Haven't Met You Yet [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

2010-06-25T16:40:00.000-04:00

Dance (draft)

2010-06-24T07:20:00.001-04:00

Freaky to the core I'll lick you up and down all night long, make you drip to the floor make these strobe lights beat to the metronome of my heart.

So baby, baby let me show you around this body of mine bringing you to wrap around the floor.

Dance to the end; let the passion break dance around this floor to my hotel room.

Leave your inhabitations at the door I'm going to show you a night that will excite you until the clock forgets time.

If you're feeling a little freaky sensual to the bone I'll put shivers down your spine, you want to be taught I'll teach you how, no tricks involved my hand is the magician on your body all night.

Freaky to the core I said it before will be unforgettable

Freaky to the bone I'll show you my wild style, god's angel

Drop down on this pole spin like a tornado just hit this floor.

Crazy hold I make this ground quake with one step in the door.

We are here for the after party.

Now break this floor like a war.

Dance, dance, dance, dance, dance

Till you hit the ground now

Dance, dance, dance, dance

Now you get this last chance to speak the words you never spoken before, scream out until your lungs get soar.

I'll catch you before you hit the floor trust me I'll be yours plus forever more.

This place is ridiculous people singing in a choir like they are school kids.

Well maybe it's the place to just let loose and be a kid.

No more rules school is out for good, I am going to teach you a new lesson.

Freaky to the core I said it before will be unforgettable

Freaky to the bone I'll show you my wild style, god's angel

Drop down on this pole spin like a tornado just hit this floor

Crazy hold I make this ground quake with one step in the door.

We are here for the after party.

Now break this floor like a war.

Dance, dance, dance, dance, dance

Till you hit the ground now

Dance, dance, dance, dance

10 Minute Happy Hardcore Mix Redux

2010-06-23T21:13:00.000-04:00

Just free writing some thinking involved(hehe) the way I feel somewhere in me.

2010-06-22T10:20:00.001-04:00

Splendid sugar you make me sweet

A kiss on the lips may burn me like tea in a cup, however I know you'll fix me right up

When happy or sad I will be your man, standing tall when a toll road is up ahead and feels like the bitter end.

Will smile together from end to end, whispering like we were kids playing hide and seek in the school yard.

I will stand tall never breaking when you need me to cheer I will be there.

Forever now, forever then, forever in your heart I will keep you beating or I will stop beating.

Listened to the new Eminem Recovery album, Short Review

2010-06-22T08:19:00.001-04:00

Well I have to say I did listen to the new Eminem album Recovery a couple weeks ago, but yesterday and today I have listened to it way more intently. I must say wow! Before I really listened to it was just bland nothing to much there for me when it comes to the music production. That being said as only part of music, the Lyrics in a good percentage of the songs are dead on amazing it really is a poem to the ear a man ripping his heart out in a more sensitive manner; that was not shown before especially by Eminem.

We have seen what he does plenty over the years and we know he can put a chill down your spine, but this album really relates more to his 1 on 1 relationship who I would assume is Kim, of course it has him with the struggles of every day coping in life(Drugs, Lost of his best friend, Etc…). He has seemed to be kicked to the floor until he burst on this album with so much hate and love which works perfectly. He just proves more so that Hate and Love together mix so much and without hate for someone I am not sure you can love them, fighting is all part of the game.

You have to be in the right mood and listen to I would start with track 2 and play through the end you will hear a story that all clasp together in each song telling a part of his passionate part of life.

(Recommend: Talkin' 2 Myself, Going through Changes, Seduction, No Love, 25 To Life, Love The Way You Lie)

We are all a little lost trying to be found

2010-06-21T18:35:00.001-04:00

We are all a little lost trying to be found, a little insecure at times, a little sad at times trying to find that way out to the road of redemption. We just want to make our mark on the world someway somehow anyway we can figure out. It might be daunting at times, yelling to yourself reiterating hold on for another day, principally when something is a drastic change. Time to rearrange this iteration

Step outside take a breath of air, we are here to stay

I'll take the pain, my spirit can fade, but I will still be around.

So fuck what my actions say,

Sometimes lost

Sometimes found

Sometimes I am loud

Sometimes I just want to be held close enough to remember what feelings I have to know I am alive.

Is that so hard to bear are you less of a person because emotions take control when things aren't going happy scholastic a lesson can be fantastic. No reason to hide inside why so we can feel like will just combust and fall like flies from the sky. Hitting the ground breaking apart our wings are down and remain on the ground to be stepped on fuck that I am

Sometimes lost

Sometimes found

Sometimes I am loud

Sometimes I just want to be held close enough to remember what feelings I have to know I am alive.

I am human no doubt about that I get stabbed I bleed to the ground this isn't the comics I am no superman made of steel kryptonite is not my worst enemy, well money might be if that is what they are referring to in a code dialect, green is bad for me. What more can I say let a verse play under your tone of breath while I feel

Sometimes lost

Sometimes found

Sometimes I am loud

Sometimes I just want to be held close enough to remember what feelings I have to know I am alive.

Stellar-Incubus

2010-06-21T15:32:00.000-04:00

Incubus "Love Hurts"

2010-06-21T15:14:00.000-04:00

Free Write 6/21/10

2010-06-21T14:52:00.001-04:00

How many of you out there are like me just don't know what to do, not that you don't want to do anything you just haven't found something your heart is desired to do so you give up, let go never look back just attack. You want something steady in your life easier said than done.

Life is a drag with this cigarette in hand no matter what I do it's never good enough. I make my move, but not soon enough I get run down in my gut. Speak the truth the bomb that hit Hiroshima is inside melting my insides through and through. I placed my bet on the protagonist of the story to prevail as the story unfolds it is clear he has nowhere to go a lost body with no home. We wish and gather around the fire trying to extinguish it by any means necessary. Shouting at the top of our lungs our voice retracts hope is dim and bliss, but I'll be the escape route when all else fails take my word for this.

I am worn-out and the shirt that never wrinkles is a mess with no use left just a dead beat we throw away. Your existence is a mistake they make sure you're aware when no hope is left so you can die painless with no feelings to spare you gave up on yourself a worthless life will recruit since you have nothing left to say. You try and try your heart is in it, but the great idea is not there. So you run and run not caring where you are just get away from any pain that takes your life the same way as an animal eats his prey.

Darren Styles - Save Me (Clubland Live)

2010-06-19T18:55:00.000-04:00

Joshua Radin - Streetlight [New] [Audio]

2010-06-18T08:02:00.000-04:00

Fuzzy (Draft)

2010-06-18T08:01:00.001-04:00

Warm and fuzzy you make me,

Warm and fuzzy you make me, believe me this feeling is silly.

Warm and fuzzy you do it to me.

I know you think it's uncomfortable, but you do it to me, flustered in a cluster you make me fuzzy.

Every night feels dark and cold, lying here awake when your voice is unattainable to contain.

It calms me when life seems a little in despair.

Your words can say nothing, but mean a whole lot of joy no matter what you say.

You're special in everyway

When you call it's a song that goes…

Warm and fuzzy you make me,

Warm and fuzzy you make me, believe me this feeling is silly.

Warm and fuzzy you do it to me.

I know you think it's uncomfortable, but you do it to me, flustered in a cluster you make me fuzzy.

Today you're in New York City closer than I have ever been to you in a long time.

Tourists make me spin circles around you, yet I can't find you lost in a bitter sweet moment

So close, somehow a million miles are in between you and I.

If only I can walk across this street corner.

Shout your name, but all the voices are over bearing.

Then you call and everything goes

Warm and fuzzy you make me,

Warm and fuzzy you make me, believe me this feeling is silly.

Warm and fuzzy you do it to me.

I know you think it's uncomfortable, but you do it to me, flustered in a cluster you make me fuzzy.

Samuel Elbaz Lost Blog

Song for Sienna By Brian Crain

The Whisper

Everything keeps growing inside of me

LPU Summit Hamburg 2011 Rolling in the Deep Linkin Park Adele cover

Candy

Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - Home [2009]

Left

Believe

Mumford & Sons - Sigh No More (Live at Reading Festival 2010) - 1/9

Santigold - Go (feat. Karen O)

Not Sure

Be

Tony

This is new

President of Czech Republic steals pen (Václav Klaus krade pero v Chile)

Adolescents - INCUBUS NEW SINGLE!

Mumford & Sons - Awake My Soul (Live)

Mumford & Sons - White Blank Page (Bookshop Sessions)

Crumpled

Popped

Fuck You UPS of BROOKLYN NY

New Black Eyed Peas VS Gym Class Heroes

Addiction Draft

Alien Ant Farm - These Days

Download to Donate @ Music For Relief

Contest Submission Poem KCC

Mason vs. Princess Superstar - Perfect (Exceeder)

Jacqueline - Overrated (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)

No Title

Draft Prologue

Shadows

Linkin Park Fan Favorites Come to Rock Band // Blog // Rock Band®

Linkin Park - "In The End"

New P!nk Vs Old Pink - Love them both.

Bliss into the world draft

OCT.27

Sympathy

Aaron Lewis "Country Boy" on SIRIUS XM The Wilkow Majority

Draft 2

New draft

Paramore - Where the Lines Overlap @ Summer Sonic 09, Japan

HIM - Killing Loneliness [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

Depressed

Mindless Self Indulgence - Never Wanted To Dance [TBM Remix]

Say Anything- Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too

Linkin Park - The Catalyst (official version)

Love Dove

**EXPLICT//UNCUT** M.O.P. - Ante Up Remix (featuring Busta Rhymes, Tefl...

Unpredictably Awakened

Ricky Blaze- Just You & I (Hold yuh riddim) Jan 2010

Write,Write,Write

Express Yourself

Write to Freedom

'It's Kind of a Funny Story' - Trailer |HD|

Murs-Break up (The OJ song)

The Smiths - Asleep (Music Video). Perks of being a wallflower dedication.

Umm, I really have no idea what this is, but it’s developed in my head as a rap.

Dreaming of Love by Lights Resolve a better version

The Tourist Lane

Good Charlotte - Little Things

One Sock

Alien

Just writing to free my head (7/13/10)

So what time is it again?

Scattered Thoughts

We are broken-paramore-lyrics

Today is just not my day (07/10/10)

Moon Shadow Flower

7/10/2010

Little Figurine

Alone

Race

Static Revenger & Richard Vission ft. LUCIANA 'I Like That'

Maddi Jane - Breakeven (Falling to Pieces) by The Script

Fly Away (Rough Draft (Work in progress))

DJ Cotts & DJ Ravine - Tea, Crumpets and Hardcore + USA Tour Details

A Perfect Place

Snow sparkling glitter shine diamonds underneath melting a new flake to replace.

Michael Bublé - Haven't Met You Yet [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

EXPLICT//UNCUT M.O.P. - Ante Up Remix (featuring Busta Rhymes, Tefl...